IN DEEP THOUGHTS..
just got back home, bathe and my hair is still wet!
so here i am, writing my blog while i get it dry...

been really a long long long day today.
today's a friday, usually a day out for landscape
drawing,but it's just two weeks before assessments
so no lesson. just briefings for drawing as well as
painting. Painful yet lessons to be learnt briefings..
Zhang had artists sharing session every painting lesson,
while Raymond had brief us about how our landscape
drawing should be like and so on.. Tiring but it's a fact
that we need to know. Frankly speaking,
i'm really really really stressed up for assessments as
well as the upcoming weeks ahead. :( 6 reviews to be
done for Spore art scene, 4 reviews, portfolio, essay
and proposal for final year project to be done for
professional practice lesson, A1 size drawing and
painting respectively, A1 size drawing for alternative drawing
and i hasnt done any and hasn't really think about how i'm
gonna finish them in just 2weeks time. GREAT! BRAVO!
omg....... oh well, the boat will be straight when it reaches the
harbour. (direct tranlation from chinese..LOL)
Had been discussing the topic on directions to go when we
proceed to year 3, our final year project and stuffs since the
start of this week. Was chatting with my sis yest and i found
out that i've been really dreaming all along while i'm in school
man.. I should have decided long time ago what am i good at,
what kind of subjects i like to paint usually, or even what things
that interests me and how i can put them into my artworks
that i'm making now.. but sad to say that i hasn't been
putting myself into thinking mode or rather let myself do
the brainstorming things like these and questions about
WHAT IS ART all about to me?
it just hit me today that i'm really behind time
and i really really really have no time to lose now!
i guess i MUST make use of the time during this coming
holidays how am i suppose to find my own style in painting
or evenhow am i gonna make an proper artwork that will
influence people, the audience? for now, i just have to do my best.
DO whatever i can, just in this two weeks.
GANBATTE! i can do it! no more negative thoughts!
i will survive! get back my fighting spirit back!

was chatting with angella and susan at my school's tcc
just now. hilarious man.. hahaa.. talked about relationships
about angella's and susan's type of guy..and then we
mentioned about how our friends around us
had changed drastically... including k, j...oh well.
PEOPLE DO CHANGE, really. i hate to accept this but
i have to. WE have to. Human mind can change easily,
as long as they go through something that had impacted them
that much that they changes their mind set and all..
i mean who doesnt? i do, i admit. I felt that i change my mind set
so often that i don't know what am i setting on. thats is why
i'm suffering right now. struggling to find my own way and
searching my goal... (:

gotta prepare to sleep le, abit sudden but today's
mentality is kinda heavy. too much thinking.
did too muchbrainstorming.. haha. shall update
just before my assessments!
AJA AJA!